Changes to the World Change Us All

23 of August 2009


CHANGES IN THE WORLD WILL CHANGE US


I sat down today to write Part II of: HOW DOES A FAMILY HATE IT’S OWN, but my fingers paused on the keyboard and for close to an hour, I read between the lines and interpret the facts of the events over the past year. I kept trying to figure out why after a year do the people who I’ve done everything to separate myself from, keep trying to suck you back in to their lives. I’ve worked so hard at surrounding myself with Love and such positive energy that the emptiness and negativity emanating from the ones I called family is so opposite of what I’ve tried to perpetuate for myself.

In my meditative state, I realized that this is their way of saying I LOVE YOU. They truly don’t know any other way to communicate the raw emotion within them, so they request my participation in their drama filled lives. It took me far less time to find the facts that were counter to those assumptions that I was led too. Someone other than my Aunt Anna created that Facebook account on her behalf. While they told her about the account and I’m sure gave her the login ID and password, she has no knowledge of how to get to it and has never logged onto it. So the emails I sent and the friendship request that were denied were being done by someone other than my Aunt Anna (I can only imagine it was my mother, Waunita Jacobs). I finally received an email message back from my Aunt, I guess the person in my immediate family who created the account for my Aunt Anna did not count on me emailing Aunt Anna the same message I emailed to her Facebook account. As for the phone calls that went unanswered; my Uncle is not doing as well as he has been. He is having difficulties with his memory and is falling down a good bit. He requires constant attention and supervision, but a woman in her mid eighties who could use help herself, is having to be his primary care giver. They both need the LOVE and SUPPORT of family and friends. Between the increased doctor appointments and other people that have been coming and going, she could only imagine that the messages were erased by mistake, but she was never great at the answer machine either.

The missed emails, phone calls, voice mail messages and friend request all culminated in the desperate calls for the receipt of love from my original family, but with all the lies, mistrust and hate; I completely understand how miscommunication has happen. Instead of saying to me, we miss you and love you; they only know how to deliver that message by causing drama, heart ache, pain and separation. It is sad, but I looked beyond the message as it was delivered to the people and why they cannot go without the drama. They have never been honest with anyone much less themselves. They only know manipulation, lies and distrust as a means to communicate, so how can I expect them to say what is truly on their mind or in their hearts. It is wrong of me to think they could or would communicate in any other way but how they know.

The realization finally sunk in for me. The world is changing (which I’ve been espousing for some time now), but so many souls in this world were born to similar manners like my parents, siblings and family. They have never learned any other way of life or to communicate, so like me having to learn that I can’t just look at the message for what it is, I must learn to see behind the message to truly understand what they really mean to say. This sounds like a lot of work, and for a while it will be; however, the energy that is changing in the world, making it a better place for all, may seem like the Devil’s work for some. So what I am experiencing with my family is exactly what the entire world may experience from all others. Those who dwell in darkness and negativity may see these changes for what they are and fear will cause them to fight against them. It means the ending to the life they know and cherish, so would you expect them to just give up the control they have over so many souls without a fight? Even those people, who are not totally engulfed in negativity, but bounce between the darkness and light, may have a difficulty garnering these changes for the possessiveness and love they truly are. It is difficult when their lives are still filled with drama, lies, half truths and misrepresentations; do you think they could trust that what they see and feel as good? No, they won’t and they can’t. Those who fill their lives with light and love, even when they know what is happening, may or may not have issue with the changing world around them. It is incumbent upon you and me to be the ones who help all others see the changes for what they truly are and help everyone through them.

That is what I had to learn from this situation and it is what we all need to learn. Everyone, not just my family, is feeling the effects of the changes that are happening with this world. These are wonderful and blessed changes that will bring about a greater consciousness of love for all. We must help to guide those around us who feel the changes, but don’t trust in them or trust themselves in the midst of these changes. They need our love and our support so that they may trust the love of others as well as us.

As for my family and the acts of the last twelve months; they will either learn and grow or parish with the inabilities to change with the world. I hope they find it within their hearts to grow with love instead of parish in the negativity and hate that it takes to treat their child or their sibling with such negative acts designed to harm. As for my actions, I choose to forgive them and to continue sending them love and forgiveness as I’ve done every day for the past several years.


PEACE AND LOVE WILL ALWAYS WIN


Your humble servant – Todd M Dobson